Hello Again Friends

Whew! I don't know about you but I've been very busy. It seems as though life flies by and the next thing you know it's almost Halloween! I cannot believe it. *shakes head*

So there's a lot that's been going on and I've been trying to figure out more of who I am and where I'm going. I've decided that I want to move to San Francisco. Michael and I are young (well, not getting younger anyway) and we don't have any children yet; no house to tie us down and if we're going to do something like a major relocation, we should do it now.

Mike has asked me why I feel like I need to go. I feel as though when we were there, I was happy. I felt different. Not because it was vacation (which was great anyway) but there was just something else underlying.. It was like I had an inner peace. It's all silly, I know, but I'm completely unhappy in this area - with the exception of family. I'm tired of the crappy winters and the humid summers and I'm tired of feeling like I'm stuck.

So I think I'm going to do it. I've started some job & apartment searching and have found some potential leads. It will be difficult but I feel like this is something I at least need to try.

The sad thing is that I'll be away from my mom and during the transition, I'll be away from Mike. We don't want another Indiana situation with nothing to come back to so we'll try to work this out.

It won't be for a little while but it's definately something in the works.

Mike says that he thinks I'm trying to run away. I don't feel like I am. I'm thinking about the whole thing logically and seriously and not letting my emotions just make the decision for me. If it was just my emotions making the decision, I'd either leave tomorrow or just go back to bed and not go anywhere. It's nerve-wracking (is that the word??) and I can feel it in my stomach and nerves the more sure I feel that it may be a healthy choice for me.

I am afraid of people thinking I'm selfish. I don't want that. I'm not trying to be selfish. I'm not used to making healthy decisions for me and I need to start or I don't know where I'll be.

Anyway, I'm sorry it's been so long since I've written. I'll try to keep up a little better for you. You're always welcome to stop by DecideToLoveEveryDay.blogspot.com (I post more regularly) where I try to find at least one good thing - big or small - in my day.

Feel free to share this with a friend. Maybe someone else has similar experiences or knows someone I can room with in San Francisco while I settle into a job and find a permanent place to live with my husband.


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Two Weeks

It's interesting... It's only been two weeks since our computer was last working (or has it been 3 weeks??) & I feel like I'm going a little crazy not being able to blog. I guess I could have/should have been blogging on my iPod but I feel like it's such a pain typing on here. I also haven't spent any time writing in my journals.

Anyway, here I am. I'm not lost or missing so I hope none of you have worried too much. :)

Mike & I are getting ready to go out to have dinner with some old friends that we haven't seen in a long time. Shocking, right? Yeah. We know. We never go out & do anything with anybody. It's like we're afraid to or something. I can't explain it.

I'm actually kind of nervous. Isn't that silly??

I guess I'm not just nervous about tonight. I'm also worried about the changes that are happening with us.

I think that I shared this year's beginning with you all. We lost our car due to an accident with some Polish guy who forgot the "Rules of the Road" & went out to get a new one. Our first payment is coming up soon (in just over a week) & we're pretty strapped on cash.

Mike was told at the beginning of the year that his department was going through more cuts. He went from 40 to 20 hours a week in a matter of minutes. Ugh! They said it was only temporary - to last for a minmum of 2 weeks and a maximum of 6 weeks. Well, it's been 4 weeks & there's no light at the end of the tunnel yet. Thus began the job search. Within an hour of submitting his resume to Canon, a position that he applied for last year & never heard back about, they called, gave salary info & scheduled an interview. He went to the interview on Wednesday & they told him that they had a few more candidates to interview & that they would contact him by the 4th of February. Well yesterday afternoon they called him & extended an offer. :) We're excited & nervous - both of us. He's going to accept the position & will start on February 14th.

I put in for a major promotion at work. I had my 2nd interview on Tuesday & did not get it (I wasn't expecting to) & they told me that they've got plans for me. They were extremely impressed with my interview & would like to give me the experience that I need and lots of opportunities to learn & grow. I'm extatic!!

So it looks like this year is just full of new opportunities & will have a lot going on. Hopefully, we'll both be able to learn & grow & build our careers so that we can have a happy & healthy future together.

I hope that you all are doing well & that God is working in your lives as He seems to be working in ours.


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